Halloween was... well, unfortunately, it turned into a regular holiday for me. I do not like holidays these days. They almost always feel empty for me. I get the blues, the not so good blues. There were no trick or treaters again this year. And we had the extra bonus of certain family and their husband doing their best, all by accident of their nature, to fuck it up for everybody.

It really sucks when you watch somebody stay with somebody who treats them like shit and pass it all down to their children. That's a nice little life lesson. Also, for everybody who watched Joe Schmo, there's another little lesson of life; nice guys only win if the game is rigged.

There was this build up, Halloween movies each night, spooky things about, talk, chatter, smiles and salutations. Then it all goes away. I'm usually in a Halloween mood all the time. It's nice to watch spooky/dark/scary movies. But I so rarely get to do that with folks. Halloween gives that chance, but only a slim chance.

Never the less, I did try to enjoy last night. I've started reading Paradise Lost by John Milton. I read it years ago. I think it's great. So great, in fact, that I wanted to buy a hardback version of it, put aside my paperback edition. Uh oh, hardbacks aren't common. And when I did find a version, it was out of print and/or extremely expensive. I saw a nice one for $107. That's not fair. But hey, life's not fair. Why should literature be?

My own literature moves forward. I am working on a short story called "W. T. For Short." After that I have one called "Cide" to write. I hope to have "W. T." finished real soon. It's really a personal side step for self amusement. I am enjoying it. It's about... that, you'll have to wait for.


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